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Craptacular

2008-03-13T16:27:58Z

Soooo I've been feeling crappy lately. A lot crappy. I stayed home from school on Tuesday. I should have made myself go to class, no matter how bad I felt. I missed a bunch of stuff in my Micro lab so my results for my unknown #1 (I'm trying to identify an unknown bacteria by using a range of tests) will probably be inconclusive. But I think if I explain everything properly I wont do too badly. >< Unlike my lecture test I just took which I'm pretty sure I failed. Maybe during Spring Break I will go up to Towson with Jessica and Jessie and study a bit. I'll ask Yui when she has off, I want her to spend the night for a while.

So I am worried about my Micro grade but if I step it up a bit, hopefully I can at least pull off a C. It's not that I don't understand it or can't get it, I'm not putting enough effort into it. So it's my fault.

I also need to make sure I take my medicine every day at the same time. Maybe I will set an alarm on my phone to remind me.

There is soo much I need to do but don't have the energy for it. I have to do better than this, I know I can.

I miss set my alarm and overslept by 45 minutes. I haven't eaten anything today which probably adds to my overall feeling of crappyness. At least I'm going to a class that I really enjoy. Robertson really is one of the best teachers I have ever had. I want to take a class with him every semester. He is such a great teacher and really inspiring. Thinking about it makes me feel a little better.

Unfortunately my mp3 player died. Grrr..... Oh well time to go to class and get out of this freakin' cold hallway.

A Near Death Experience

2007-11-15T01:29:05Z

I almost had a heart attack. My flash key broke.

Thankfully just the part you plug in seperated from the actual key and my sister was able to fix it..

I would have lost EVERYTHING. My artwork, my stories... and the paper I have due tommorrow.

Bleh

2007-09-11T14:37:21Z

I felt sick over the last few days. I guess it's going around, my teacher feels sick so she hurried the lecture and finished an hour early so she could have a break. Now there is about five of us sitting around in the room. I could work on my work, maybe I will after this entry.

My chest is congested, it makes it hard to brethe especially when I sit or lay a certain way. I keep coughing horribly. I try to surpress it in class because people will stare and think I have TB or something (I've had it happen before). Ontop of that I have an upset stomach. IDK why or whats wrong. Nothing makes it better. And to top it off, I keep getting cramps ><

I have to work tonight but thats ok, I can relax and do my math homework. Yea.

Tommorrow I need to talk to the people in my office and Dundalk, hopefully they will have me back. I also need to talk to Caroline about getting a room for the anime club on Thursday.

I don't what to do on Thursday. I need to make a list of things to talk about and then pick an anime. Whoo hoo.

What Do You Have To Say? - Music: My First Favorite Band

2007-09-11T14:24:34Z

What was the first band you became a fan of?

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It's been a while but it's either one of two bands: Hanson or TLC. I loved TLC back when I was in elementry school, I'd sing there songs and annoy my sister, mostly because I frequently got the lyrics wrong. >> I also was a HUGE hanson fan up into high school. I still like a few of their songs. I had all their albums on tapes and I swore I was going to marry Zack, the drummer. I think I still have those tapes around somewhere...

My ninja loves!

2007-04-17T15:41:23Z

Hey I got two girls, wait thats a boy? ^_^

And what evil am I?

Hey this test said I am not very stable. Wow they must be watching me. *shifty eyes*

My Kitty Cat

2007-04-13T23:48:12Z

Now last post I told you about my poor kitty cat and just incase anyone wants to see a picture of the little special bundle of joy, here she is.

Isn't she all cute and special on my computer desk?

Now, I also took a picture of my poor kitty cats wound. It's about 4 days old, 2 days since we (*ehem* me) found it and took her to the vet. It's been shaved and cleaned and she's getting meds. It looks a bit better. I am putting this pic under a cut incase anyone does not one to see the hole in my cat >.>

Oh BTW I am sick. Bleh.

This is a long one folks

2007-04-13T06:44:51Z

Well the last couple days have been hectic. And I am not even going to get into how my dad has been pissing me off lately. Maybe another entry.

I'll start with how it was suppose to go, then go to how it went.

Tueseday:
Shadow a vet tech 8-4
Update stuff for comic
Have Lucy come over

Wensday:
Go out for breakfast
Hangout and chill
Watch anime

Thursday:
More chilling until lucy goes home
Add more stuff to comic

Friday:
Work
Relax
Comic

Tuesday:

Well Tuesday I did shadow the people at Eastern Animal Hospital. It was great I really liked it. The people there were friendly and showed me all inds of stuff. I got to see a lot of routeen stuff like teeth cleaning, anal glands, IV's, blood draws, and heart worm test. They also showed me a little on how they did paper work and blood testing with the machines.

They were really busy so I did get to see more complicated stuff like teetch pulls, x-rays, ultra sounds, several neuters (VERY easy on a cat), a spay, and even an emergency spleenectamy. Fun times.

Lucy was SUPPOSE to come over later that evening but my mom wanted me to work the next morning because they needed someone there so I called Lucy and she reluctantly agreed to come over the next day after I worked. I talked to her for a bit and tried to take a nap because I was tired from shadowing. Then I had to make dinner (my sister was to sick to help or anything).

Wensday:

I went to work and drew a lot, several sketches, I finished a pic for Lucy and a page for my comic (which doesn't look right when i scan it so i have to redo it ARGH!!!!!!)

I went and got Lucy, and went home. We were hanging out and i was fixing pizza for us. Well i was petting the cat and felt something sticky. Then it felt...weird. So I looked over to her farside and tried hard not to freak out.

There was a hole.

Yes a freaking hole. I tried not to freak out, and so did Lucy. I told my sister who called my mom and talked about it. Then I called a Vet ( the one I was at yesterday) and they said i needed to bring her in. My sister called my mom and she said i had to go in but we could go now or in the morning. I wanted that looked at. Now. I could not sleep knowing that wasn't looked at. We thought it could be a bite would but it was too round, and we thought it could be a bebe shot (our first cat go hit with one before).

We took her to the vet and after at least an hour we found out what was wrong.

She goes ourdoors a lot, and sometimes fights. Something probably bit her and then it got infected. Well ot filled up and swelled and eventully burst. Leaving a large hole in her side, straight to the muscel. It was really weird because she doesn't seem to be in pain. The vet didn't have to sedate her. She examined it, probed it, flushed it, and trimmed the dead skin with a scaple. My cat is either dull to pain, or a saint.

Well with much relief (and a cat with a hole or 'abcess') we went home and i am in charge of her meds. 10 days one pill 12 am, 8am, and 4pm. And an oral injection every other day. Oi

Thursday:

I didn't sleep well. At all. So when I dragged myself up exhausted at 8am, i didn't have the energy to make the cat swallow the pill. So I crushed it in some tuna. Yea lazy.

It took me 20 minutes to wake her up for breakfast. Hey, she told me to do it. Oi.

My sister said I should get the cat a new litter box and litter (her old one was thrown away) to encourage her to go outside (with that hole and all). So I went and got her a litter box, litter, and wet food (the pills need to be taken with food and she always eats wet food so thats how I make sure she eats after taking her meds).

I tried to take a nap. No avail.

Since Lucy came over a day late, i wanted to see if she could stay a day late (even though she has to go to work at 3). Well I have to work tommorrow morning too, so i asked if she could be dropped off on my way to work, but my mom has a 9:30 doctors appoitment so my manager is picking me up. So my mom dropped her off after she got off at like 9

Friday:

I updated DA, did stuff for my other comic and finished a LJ entry at 2:40. Shoulda gone to bed a while a go. Bad Valerie.

Goodnight non reader.

DID YOU READ ALL THAT? LOL

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-11-18T04:00:00

2006-11-18T08:00:00Z

I joined the poetry club, im excited becaue I like poetry, it's very enjoyable. Plus it's run by my friend Lucas. But I don't know a whole lot about poetry, I use to write poems a lot, but I've only written two in recent times. I'm thinking about asking one my friends whose good at poetry to look at them before I present them but it kinda makes me nervous. I love my friends and I know they would always mean well. Im just afraid of being cliche or writing jsut bad poetry. I just take what I think I make it into a poem. Usually it's about some significant emotion in my life.

I'm just going to post the most recent poem I wrote. It signifies a really big turning point in my life, people who know me very well know exactly what this poem is talking about. I just edited it. I think I made it better. If anyone has anything to say about it, go ahead. I'd appreciate it actually.

Lost No More

I always seemed a little lost,

Not knowing my way but pretending I did.

Just walking, needing something,

I didn’t know what it was.

You were my friend,

My best friend.

I was happy, but lost.

It was ok.

I thought I found my way,

But it just hurt me, so I left it behind.

I was lost more then ever,

Not knowing my way, but pretending I did.

You told me it would be ok,

You were my friend.

I still looked down,

Lost and confused.

But then I looked up,

You smiled at me.

I wasn’t lost any more,

I found my way.

I didn’t need like I did before.

I didn’t hurt like I did before.

I wasn’t lost like I was before.

It was you that I needed after all.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-10-13T09:17:00

2006-10-13T13:19:18Z

The desciption at the bottom is so very me...

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Your Power Animal: Deer

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda

You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/theanimalpersonalitytest/">The Animal Personality Test</a></div>

Took a while...

2006-09-12T07:45:40Z

I'm finally getting tired enough that it's slowed me down. I'm starting to feel a little hingry, a bit nausious and icky. My body is heavy and my eye sleep. I'll sleep soundly.

I hope I don't regret staying up like this, I haven't donew it in a while.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-09-11T22:15:00

2006-09-12T02:20:43Z

Someone really close to me is going through some tough family stuff. Theres nothing I can do. Feeling a little helpless. She is feeling a lot helpless. Kinda feeling sad and depressed now.

I'm to sad to say anything else now.. Man really really down.

Webcomic awesomeness

2006-09-11T04:53:40Z

It took a long time, a lot of work, and one but weekend of stress.

Me and my friend Yui finally have our webcomic up, as of Midnight. I am super psyced. Everyone should read it. And love it.

Children of Fate!
http://children.smackjeeves.com/

The verdict is in.

2006-07-26T12:05:18Z

Ok. There are three bad things about watching Bill (my managers) kids.

1) I get nervous when I have to stop them from fighting.
2) I don't akways know what to fed them.
3)Getting up early in the morning.

Yea. The third is the worst, at least at the moment.

Otakon is in like a week and a half. Yea. I still have no costume. Maybe I can make the poncho myself... yea, I doubt it. I'm too special.

My head hurts a ton, probably because I'm still tired. If Bill kids are still asleep, I can lay on the loveseat for a little while.

2nd Job... Sorta

2006-06-28T20:03:26Z

I'm going to babysit my bosses kids two or three days a week. He's got two boy's Zack and Clay. Oh boy....

Also, I bought the SIMS 2 so unless you work with me, you may never see me again. <<

And I have a massive migraine. Bleh.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-06-25T03:01:00

2006-06-25T07:07:20Z

Y [2:09 A.M.]: this is the worst fate ever
Dottcom6687 [2:10 A.M.]: what is?
Y [2:10 A.M.]: shes gone
Y [2:10 A.M.]: gone
Dottcom6687 [2:10 A.M.]: who?
Y [2:10 A.M.]: aura
Y [2:10 A.M.]: shes gone
Dottcom6687 [2:10 A.M.]: What do you mean?
Y [2:11 A.M.]: aura
Y [2:11 A.M.]: is
Y [2:11 A.M.]: is
Y [2:11 A.M.]: dieing
Dottcom6687 [2:11 A.M.]: I'm so sorry.
Y [2:11 A.M.]: i cant fix her
Y [2:11 A.M.]: it sux
Y [2:12 A.M.]: the one thing i cant stand get damaged
Dottcom6687 [2:12 A.M.]: I'm sorry. I know it hurts.
Y [2:12 A.M.]: and she is dieing
Y [2:12 A.M.]: my aura
Y [2:12 A.M.]: she was only a year old
Y [2:13 A.M.]: my little girl
Y [2:14 A.M.]: god sux
Y [2:15 A.M.]: help
Y [2:15 A.M.]: im going crazier
Dottcom6687 [2:16 A.M.]: I'm so sorry. Terrible things happen to people who don't deserve it.
Dottcom6687 [2:16 A.M.]: We can go crazy together.

Y [2:17 A.M.]: 90|) |=(_)(|< 4|\||) |)353|2\/35 70 |)13 |=0|2 |-|(_)|271|\|9 //\//\Y 4(_)|24
Dottcom6687 [2:19 A.M.]: ?

Leet Leason Removed... Irrelavant...
well it is at 2:30 in the morning when im exhasted and emotionally strained
Dottcom6687 [2:38 A.M.]:
Y[2:38 A.M.]: you have no idea
Y [2:38 A.M.]: i lost aura
Y [2:38 A.M.]: a chunk of my soul
Y [2:38 A.M.]: gone
Y [2:39 A.M.]: in a long drawn out 32 min time period
Y [2:39 A.M.]: seeing her suffer
Dottcom6687 [2:39 A.M.]: At least she isn't hurting any more.
Y [2:39 A.M.]: she wasnt hurting
Y [2:39 A.M.]: she was just waiting
Y[2:40 A.M.]: and ive lost triedge
Dottcom6687 [2:40 A.M.]: I know what it is like to have your soul break, but for differnet reasons.
Y [2:40 A.M.]: all my power
Dottcom6687 [2:40 A.M.]: I'm sorry
Y [2:40 A.M.]: gone
Y [2:41 A.M.]: i will destroy the world with my new toy until aura is brought back to me
Dottcom6687 [2:41 A.M.]: your scaring me a little
Y [2:42 A.M.]: my aura was more important to me than meag was when we were dating and now she is gone
Y[2:42 A.M.]: gone
Dottcom6687 [2:45 A.M.]: I know. I know it hurts. It hurts to loose ones we love, I can say I know how you feel but I doubt it. Everone I have lost is still alive. At least they have a chance to live nad be happy even though I lost them.
Y [2:46 A.M.]: yep
Y [2:46 A.M.]: i will bring aura back to me
Y [2:46 A.M.]: even if i have to go to hell to get her
Y [2:46 A.M.]: ill bring her back
Dottcom6687 [2:47 A.M.]: By my beliefs she will come back.
Y [2:47 A.M.]: god takes to damn long
Y [2:48 A.M.]: screw him
Dottcom6687 [2:48 A.M.]: I have weird belief
Y [2:48 A.M.]: ill bring forth a firey apocalypse
Dottcom6687 [2:48 A.M.]: *beliefs
Y [2:48 A.M.]: and bring her back
Dottcom6687 [2:48 A.M.]: Ryan I don't think that will bring her back.
Y [2:49 A.M.]: it will
Y [2:49 A.M.]: a lawer will get god to bring her back
Dottcom6687 [2:49 A.M.]: What if other people get hurt?
Y [2:50 A.M.]: as long as i get my world reconected i dont care
Dottcom6687 [2:50 A.M.]: I'd trade me for her if I could.
Y [2:50 A.M.]: wont work
Y [2:50 A.M.]: she is special
Dottcom6687 [2:51 A.M.]: i said if
Dottcom6687 [2:51 A.M.]: thigs don't work that way
Dottcom6687 [2:51 A.M.]: we can
Y [2:51 A.M.]: nothing works the way it should
Y [2:51 A.M.]: but it will all be fixed soon
Y [2:51 A.M.]: the hell wars are begining
Y [2:51 A.M.]: and i will be the leader
Dottcom6687 [2:51 A.M.]: glad for the heads up
Y [2:51 A.M.]: and destroy all who oppose me
Y [2:52 A.M.]: 7 10
Dottcom6687 [2:52 A.M.]: whats 7 10?
Y [2:52 A.M.]: july 10
Dottcom6687 [2:52 A.M.]: i thoughs so

Nothing has been said in 10 minutes. I don't know what to say or do....

Does anyone who reads this crap know l33t? I was hoping for a translation of some thing if anybody can/cares.

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My Birthday.

2006-06-07T00:33:38Z

Today is my Birthday on 06-06-06. Hmmm pretty odd.

^_^

Music

2006-05-24T14:35:06Z

1. Turn on your favourite media player and turn your shuffle feature on.
2. Hit "play" and keep track of the next 10 songs that come up. (If you have iTunes, you can make a smart playlist that will automatically list your most recently played selections.)
3. Post your 10 shuffled songs, along with these instructions. You are not allowed to lie, omit tracks or otherwise try to make your musical taste seem hipper than it actually is.
4. Tag five people on your friends list to do the same.

1)Deer Dance- System of A Down
2)Kairi 11 -Kingdom Hearts
3)Letterbomb- Green Day
4)Legend (The Gods Name is Abraxis)- Revolutionary Girl Utena
5)100 Words- FFX-2
6)Dueces Are WIld- Aerosmith
7)Strange Wispers- Revolutionary Girl Utena
8)Suggestions- System of A Down
9)Welcome Home- Cooheed and Cambira
10)Dep Jungle- Kingdom hearts

I feel like an uber dork here...

A Song On My Mind

2006-05-12T14:14:22Z

Baby, I don't understand
Why we can't just hold on, to each other's hands
This time might be the last, I fear
Unless I make it all too clear
I need you so, whoa

Take these broken wings
And learn to fly again, learn to live so free
When we hear, the voices sing
The book of love will open up and let us in
Take these broken wings

Baby, I think tonight
We can take what was wrong, make it right, oooh
Baby, it's all I know
That you're half of the flesh and blood makes me whole
Need you so

So take these broken wings
And learn to fly again, learn to live so free
And when we hear, the voices sing
The book of lvoe will open up and let us in
Take these broken wings
You got to learn to climb, learn to give, love so free
And when we hear, the voices sing
The book of love will open up and let us in, yeah yeah
Let us in, let us in

Baby, it's all I know
That you're half of the flesh and that blood makes me whole
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

So take these broken wings
And learn to fly again, learn to live so free
And when we hear, the voices sing
The book of love will open up for us and let us in
Take, these broken wings
You got to learn to fly, learn to give your love so free
And when we hear, the voices sing
The book of love will open up for us and let us in
Yeah yeah, oh yeah, wooh ooh, ahh, ahh

Because I really do love you. I'd give up a lot for you, even if you don't think it.

I bet if you read this you'd think it was something totally different.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-05-11T09:15:00

2006-05-11T13:16:31Z

I would like to say that people on Gaia art Arena can KISS MY BUTT!

I am so sick of people telling me how much I suck and that I didn't put a lot of effort into my artwork.

When I put my art up for public view, I expect criticism, and I excpect people to say things I'm not going to like. HOWEVER

1) Complete rude comments are absolutely unneccessay. Telling me I put no effort into my art, my art makes you barf, or I draw like a 3 year old is completely unwarented.

I removed one picture from gaia because it continually got very rude comments.

Then, there is one picture that isn't great in comparision to a lot of other art, especially digital art and proffessional level art. But guess what, I'm not a digital artist and I'm not a proffessional. I am an amatuer who draws like they have since they were a child because it's fun. I do not appreciate people telling me I didn't put effort into a picture, expecially if it is one I spent hours on. That pisses me off. It might not be great in compasion, but it hurts to have on of the best pieces i've done so far, completely debased.

2) This isn't a proffessional art arena, people here are amateurs, give a freaking break people.

3) Not every body has photoshop or digital art programs. It's not fair to hold people responsible for not doing things in art that can only be done in a digital art program.

4) READ THE DESCRIPTION! It is there for a reason, ok?

It might seem stupid but earlier today I started to cry because of something someone said on the art arena. I can handle decent and constructive criticism, even some thats a little harsh. But being blatently mean and debasing my efforts just really hurts.

I try not to let things like that bother me, but I can't help it. Is it stupid to get so upset over this? I don't know...

So to all you rude art critics out there, I give you the one finger salute.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-05-04T11:26:00

2006-05-04T15:28:14Z

Hey I've had my LJ for more then two years now, yea!

Not that anyone cares. Do I even care...?

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-04-03T10:48:00

2006-04-03T15:03:11Z

Why are people so mean? Ok, I get that I am not the greatest artist in the world, but I work really hard on my art, and even if it won't win any contest, or be famous, that art could be the best I've ever done. I can accept contructive criticism, it might make me sad that there are mistakes I couldn't see, but I want to improve myself, so I take those comments and try to make things better. But I don't think anyone who puts their heart into a piece of art deserves blantant insults.

Here Is the first piece, it is cute, I know it is weird nad the eyes need work but I did this a few months ago and I worked really hard in it, I was really proud of this picture untill I posted in in the art arena on Gaia.

http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b362/otakugirlfroggy/superspud.jpg

I don't think it deserve a 10 or anything But I think it would a 5-6. It is rated at a 4.5882

Here are some of the things people said about this picture.

-this ruined my day
-yer kidding right?
-wth
-woowww...not
-im back i just had to barf from lookin at thiooooh
shit its comin again

I think there were others, but I deleted a bunch. Of course if you think this is bad, it gets worse.

Here is another pic, it is not that good, not one of my better pics, the proportion is really bad. I am working on that, but I get screwed up when I draw things larger then I normally do. The hands may look funny, but hands are difficut. But dispite that, there a good things about the picture. The planets are cute, the shading is ok, her expression sctually looks surprised. It doesn't deserve blatent insult even if it is very flawed.

http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b362/otakugirlfroggy/cof/midoristarsplantes.jpg

Here are comments for this one
-u could do much better (how would they know?)
-...I didn't know Gaia allowed 3-year-olds to join.
-has anyone noticed the HANDS!!?? WTF WERE U
THINKING!!!U CAN'T PUT THIS ON GAIA FOR THE WHOLE
WORLD TO SEE!!THEY'LL ALL RATE IT 0/10, EXACTLY
LIKE ME!!!!

When I read all of he mean comments people put on my art for the first time, I cried. Did I deserve this? I think not. I would like to thank the few people who posted suprotive comments.

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-03-02T13:32:00

2006-03-02T19:50:16Z

Well I have more then an hour untill my sister gets out of her class, I got out of math even earlier then usuall. We had a test today and when we were done we could leave. It took me about a half an hour. I should have looked at my notses or something first because I had a little trouble with some of the stuff. It's really easy and all, I hope I didn't screw up because this is really easy math. I'm already upset at some of the grades I got on my quizes. They aren't bad, they just aresn't as good as I'd luck. I want an A but if I get a B I'd be ok. I hate this space bar, it is so load nad annoying.

Must. Get. Headphones.

Ah. Relief. It really was giving me a headache. Argh. I keep getting really sharp stabbing pains in my head today. Different then usuall. Grrness. I think I get different kinds of headaches. I really do need to go to the doctors. But I don't wanna.

Hmmm nobody is online. I think they are all in class or whatever. I thought Yui was suppose to be at work right now. She usually is online when she's at work. Although she might actually be working, or her boss might have told her to leave. He does that sometimes, but she still gest paid so it's ok. I wouldn't mind that. I really, really need a job. Lucy is suppose to come over this weekend, maybe she will walk up to the Family Dollar with me and see if they will hire me. She can be my support. I've never asked for a job before. I got my job at Stansbury because my sister and mom work there.

I kinda broke down and cried on the phone to Lucy, I felt bad. I feel like a burden sometimes. I usally end up falling apart when Aaron is around. Idk. He is really great with that. So is Lucy. But they are great in a different way. Aaron offers good advice and solutions to my problems, and reminds me of certian things that help me. Lucy makes me laugh, a lot. I need both. It's good to have friends. And whenever Miaka is there, she is the kinds optomist who reminds me it will get better. Jessie is just a sweetheart. Even if were not as close anymore, she is just uber sweet. Go support team!\

I think I'm gonna have to talk to my mom, she tried to talk to me while I was on the phone and I got really irratated because I was in the middle of crying and talking to Lucy. I love my mom, and I guess she must be worried about me because of my very aggressive behavior lately. Honestly, I'm a little worried about me too. I feel bad for the way I have treated my sister, even though I feel she is being mean to me and I want to lash out against her for it. I need to get back to working on approaching things in a more mature manner.

I was doing really good staying calm and approaching things in a more mature manner. No one noticed that, but when I loose myself or mess up and have a fit or a moment, they certainly notice. Maybe I should bring it up. I know I should. I should have a long time ago. Who knows my I didn't.

Grrr. I get so irratated with myself sometimes. Sometimes I hate myself. I guess I'll just have to learn to live with me.

Hmmm... Makes me think of when I was younger I first started feeling I wasn't me. I wasn't in the right body of something. I would look in the mirror and it wasn't my refelection. I would hear my voice and it wasn't my own. I know thats really weird. Rather creapy too. It's an awkward feeling, I still feel like that sometimes. Not as much. I think I just got use to it. You know, I don't think I ever told anyone. I never told anyone when I was younger because I didn't know quite how to say it.

Lalala It's nice to rant. I think I am the queen of long-ass posts. Mwahahaha.

My sister just walked in, she got out of class early. IDK when we are leaving, we wait for Jessie's bus to get to FS from Towson. Jessie is worried about her grades, but she is smart, I have faith in her ability. She had a bad 1st semester, but thats ok, I know she can make it up. Go my Jessie! ^^

I hope I keep myself together and do well in my classes so I can get into the Vet. Tech program. I am really in to being a vet tech, it's something I want to do rally bad, even though I'll have to work hard and won't make good money. Sure $15-18 an hour sounds really good to someone whose only job made $5.50-$6.00 an hour but if I ever want to get married and have a family well whoever I marry better make more money then I do.

Of course if I can get my book(s) published and they are successful, then I will be financially set, and won't have to worry about that. I read a thing on getting a book published, I honestly think it is more work then actually writing a decent book! Geez. If any one reads this and wants to know what I mean, go to this site.

http://www.soyouwanna.com/site/syws/publishbook/publishbook.html

Sorry I'm to lazy to do the linky thing.

I have a really bad pain in my right shoulder. I think it is from my bookbag. It's kinda in the area where it rests. My bb is fairly light on MWF but on TU I have a lot more books so it is really heavy and it sits right on the bone next to my neck, I think it's my collar bone. IDK, I never did anatomy or anything. Oh well, who cares. My head is really starting to hurt, maybe because it is uber load in here.

My head is really throbbing on one side. I wounder when Jessie ill get here. I like this song.

I think I'm done posting since I'm out of stuff to say, except it smells funny in here. Nice way to end things. lol

otakugirlfroggy @ 2006-02-27T20:39:00

2006-02-28T01:40:43Z

Oh yea I forgot, I still don't like CCBC Essex. And I still haven't talked to the cool dorky people.

School and stuff

2006-02-22T18:10:28Z

Well I still don't like school. I am use to the places on campus where I regularly go. I spend hours sitting in the basement of building B. It's got the cafeteria, bookstore, and kinda lounge area, a TV, a microwave, and vending machines. Of course I usually sit there listening to music and reading, writing, drawing, and occasionally doing homework. It's kinda lonely. I wish I had some friends on campus.

One thing that really annoys me is everyone on campus seems to smoke and they do it right in front of the doors. Grrr. I don't need to breath in that nasty air. It's bad enough my dad smokes on the pourch and stinks it up, then he brings in a cloyud of nasty smoke when he comes in. If you know me and you smoke, sorry, you automatically loose a few people points.

I think the thing that bugs me the most is not only am I too afraid of rejection because of being tesed my ehole life to talk to a group of people I think I might be able to befriend, but I don't get to see any of my old friends. The ones and Dundalk and even the other ones who go other places. I miss my peeps. Maybe I'll go to GS and see those people. It might make me feel better.

Grrr. Now I have to go to my stupid lab which is three hours long. Hopefully I'll get out early because it is usually long or tedious. Meh.

Just some light reading

2006-02-03T15:57:58Z

Well today I finished reading The Da Vinci Code. It is a really good book, not I realize why it's such a big hit. All the symbolism wrapped in symbolizom covering a code revealing another code... It would take a genius to put all that together. I was amazed and extremely humbled. Although I was proud of myself for figuring out one of the last riddles of the book, even though it was the easiest.

After I finished The Da Vinci Code, I started on my New Book. The Inferno. When I first decided to look into the book I got confused because I knew it as "Dante's Inferno" I didn't realize that it was titled "The Inferno" and the Dante part refered to it's author Dante Algheri. I haven't started on the actuall book, there is a a very long intruduction along with a few other parts that all detail Dante's life, his works, and the base of The Inferno. It looks to be a very interesting work, but it will probably be difficult for me to understand. Since it's traslated from 13th century italian, the way the book is written is quite differnt then what I'm use to.

On a completely different note, cappacino machines are noisy, I never want to own one and I can't stand the sound of the space button on the keyboard, it's so annoying, just as annoying as the cappacino machine, only not as load.

I don't think I should type much more or I risk driving myself crazy.